state of being
for some unknown reason i want to hit something. i want to scream at the top of my lungs until i turn blue. then crumple to the ground and cry hysterically.
i want someone to wrap their arms around me until i stop crying. and tell me that it's ok to cry.
they say christmas is the most stressful time of the year. statistically, anyway. i don't know if i fit into that statistic, or into a different one.
life doesn't make sense anymore. maybe it never really did; i probably just made something up so my existence would seem logical, if not meaningful.
i am living in a time and place where there are at least two people within ten meters of me at any given moment.
i have never felt more alone.
i want someone to wrap their arms around me until i stop crying. and tell me that it's ok to cry.
they say christmas is the most stressful time of the year. statistically, anyway. i don't know if i fit into that statistic, or into a different one.
life doesn't make sense anymore. maybe it never really did; i probably just made something up so my existence would seem logical, if not meaningful.
i am living in a time and place where there are at least two people within ten meters of me at any given moment.
i have never felt more alone.
2 Comments:
funny how sometimes we can be at a very crowded place with people we know all around, yet feel so alone. at other times, we could be all alone on a field staring into a cloudless night and yet feel in 'touch' with people who matter to us.
ey cheer up! surfing next week di ba? should be something to look forward to. ;) -rphl
you are not alone
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