ugh.

in emotional slump since monday. reason not completely unknown, but currently being ignored and / or denied. cow. feel v UNprofound these past days. like am the world's biggest dunce. alright, maybe not biggest, but close. argh! am just so... off. not myself. and don't know how to make self feel ok. bugger.

have a couple of posts in works, saved as draft in dashboard. but am currently not in proper state of mind to finish poetic or prosaic writing. have one almost done, just sitting there waiting to be published. but am gonna sit on it a while longer. posting will have definite repercussions. may make current situation worse. might throw self deeper into hole am currently in. suffice to say, post is thought-provoking. especially to parties concerned. yes, v controversial.

am currently writing in helen fielding-bridget jones mode. feel that this method most matches mood. short. unadorned. random thought bursts to match confused emotional state. but am not consistent with style. have to brush up on writing techniques. too tired to bother editing. will go to bed soon. hope funk will disappear in morning.